working in progress

OK, today I feeling there is hope. Funny thing is I was cleaning out a cabinet and came cross the annual school pictures I've had made since 2000...looking at the ones from only 2 years ago made realize how far I have fallen. And these were only head shots!
I've decided to suck it up and make myself wear the spring/summer clothes I can get into. I'm NOT buying anything new unless I have to - that will give me motivation to get my butt in gear. My reward will be an occasional new item plus all the things I can't get into now. I'm also gping to make myself get rid of old clothes...WQhy do I hold on to them? By the time I can wear some of them, they will be out of style!! Insanity I tell you...
The biggie for me is going to be getting 1/2 hour of exercise a day in...it doesn't sound like much but it's going to take dedication...I know I've said it before BUT
I HAVE TO PUT MYSELF BEFORE EVERYTHING ELSE! (Why is that so difficult!?)

reality check...

don't know if any of you are lurking or not - but that's ok. i needed to talk.
i'm getting ready for spring break and for the first time i hauled out my shirts, shorts, and bathing suits...
can't wear any summer skirts.
I have 4 pr of shorts I can get into...3 of them barely fit.
out of 8 bathing suits accumalated over the last 4 years i can wear 2...barely
tried on several shirts...have 3 or 4 i can wear - problem is they don't go well w/ the shorts i can wear
i then gave up b/c i couldn't take anymore...need to reflect and feel sorry for myself...then i'll come up with a plan...